Rain down on me, and happy ever after

Look to the sky still in the nice gloomy shine
But sudden, i heard the roar from clouds.
and im still walkin on trotoar behind the street while still look up always, and always, cause the sun still shone around me and my self.

but from the east i look black clouds come and run to the west, and its mean it will be rain.
and i think, sun have same feel like me. the sun feel sad cause cant shone the world coz rain.
im fell so guilty. i hate rain, i hate rain when my heart feel like a shit.

and ... whollaaa!!! rain actually fell to me..
while i ran to the shade.. sudden the bad memorries apear on my mind.
my heart said "fuck! why always happen to me? why im still thinkin him. even though, its to hurt to remember that"

its about JOJO (Jhonatan) .
to many promise, to many talk, to many plane, to many anything, i thing its a fuckin bulshit.
and hes doesnt realize, about 2 years we build this relation whit love, with calm, whit pleasure, and we faith.
but what? i see his broke anything we build it.

1 or 2 mistakes. ok, i forgive him. and more and more i give him the meaning of FREEDOM .
his more broke my love to much.. and the love more get chrush, and chrush.
until so many sluts come to got him. and not because want to got him. its about
ive relation with NICE PLAYER.*mean playboy*




now, its already 1 month. im loose from anything.
im change my number, and i talk to anyone offcoursely my neighbors for cant give information about me.

realy-realy rainy down on me. im feel so fooll..
and im feel no one understand me.
people just look im with him always together and always feel happines.
but the truth not said like people judge and look.

but in the rain down on me im still feel angry. even though its suprising
he found me on the nice shade. apparently his both rain to like me. we together feel suprising with spechless face.and we get some conversation..

"ehm hei" he said
"owgh hei. where you go? haha its suprising we meet again." away in the opposite direction
"hem, im after office hour and still want to f.fff..find you ,  aa.. annd..and cant belive it i meet you in here. haha its about 1 month right. hemm... you lose in hardest time. if you want to know" he said hope to make me feel poor to him.
"e..eehm.. ya youre right. huh? really? hemm i dont know. i just want to.."
"dont talk anymore, im serious. you lose in hardest part. you remember my mom?"
"yeah. im remember. why you touch me!  eghh dont touch" escape frome his hug.
"hunny i miss you. and my mom need you. shes always delirious ur name and my name. and sometimes talk about maried.now shes at hospital" his ashamed and look feelin guilty

in the hardest part, i remember i ever had nice relation with his mom when im stil with him before 1 month im lost. and now his mom at hospital? oh gosh? why?. but jo dont talk bout mom deaseas. im still worry and stuck and im feel my brain clogged

"if you dont mind, maybe you can go to hospital. soory for my mistake on the past. i dont mean want to hurt you anymore. i.. i.. i just... hmmm i just want talk this.. and..ahmm ok.. rain gone, maybe i must.. eh ok, sooryy..for anything. bye " his walk faster.

rain goes by with brightnes sun slowly. im on the shade corner feel spechlees. i know when his get serious conversation. i remember when his mom get vertigo deaseas.

3 or 4 block on his house , had hospital near there. maybe jojo forget talk where the hospital his mom rest but i blv his mom always trust for hospital near their house

but before to go, im wait taxi, and hurry back to my home and when im arrived on my home i talk to driver for stil turn on the cargo and wait on parking pararel infront my house. im run, while im find my keys on my bag, and i open the door, and next close the door "BAMMM" the voice from the door. coz im slamming the door with uncontrol power. i take a shower, change clothes and uses my nice black heels and his mom alwyas said when i use this heels "you're always pretty, be my son wife please" oh gosh! im still remember that.


 i open taxi car door and i said " go to angels holly hospital please". but im remember something. his mom love my photo project, and her know photografer is my job and im hurry found my i-pad on my bag, with fast im open galery and i talk to the driver.
"go to wreeck photo studio please." with fast the driver drift. and when im arrived on photo studio just take 2 minute for get nice print photo and back to the taxi and go to the first plane , "his mom"


when im arrived, im walk fast to reseptionist

"excuse me, can i ask where Mrs.hellena room?"
"on 3rd floor, orchid vip room"
"ok thank you"

i walked to the elevator and i dont know sudden' im still feel mess. im afraid to meet her, coz even though jojo is a player but, his have good relation with her.

and arrived front of her room. my mind, and my soul feel like an earthquake or maybe megaquake? im feel get big shocks. but ive tried to be brave.

"KRIEK" sound from door.

her mom still sleep when i look after open the door. im close the door slowly to didnt make annoying sounds. walkin slowly though the sound from my high heels still i heard, i sit beside her until im assleep.

and shes wake up...

"hmm.hoaaam.. jo..jo.. | her wake up and look around her room and her feel suprising with me | "anna?!..."|with slowly her rup my head|

"mom?" ask me, " are you okay?"
"wheres jojo? hes.."
"i dont know mom, im goin here alone"
"you know im rest in here from who.."
"hahah nothin mom, forgoten.. i bring some pict for you. do you like it?"

shes open my present from nice swetty case.. and voila..shes respect to much!

"oh my goodnes! look! its sooo oh god, you always make me.." shes cry and hug me so tight..
"its okay mom... its okay..* i stroked her back slowly*  i bring it just for you mom. maybe if you leave this hospitas i hope.. ya maybe you can put in your house wall"
"offcousely yes!...hemm sorry, anyway i heard you with jojo get.."
"mom, dont explain it! what you heard and know in this time is true. i dont mean want to hurt your son but..hiss.."
"jojo tell me everythin, his explain to me about his fault for you, ya i cant do anything, i was being a good listener only at that time, when he told while hes cries"

for this time i heard with cant blvm.. jojo cry? huh? really? in front his mom!!...owgh god.. god give me a reason and tell me why his can get cry like this? whe im with him i neva look him cry with hes guilt that he did


"MOM! soory im late for..*while open the door and more spechhles look me* hee..ehmm Anna?! .. Mom.. you.." Jojo spechles

"i told her everythin you did last her leave from you for a while.. come here. ill show you some good pict shes give to me.."

jojo walked slowly with lilbit afraid but more and more his brave and get close to me..but theirs always love my project...

"hollywravy! ure always the best take a good pict like this"
"hahaha thanks.." smile with lilbit ashamed cause few hours ago im still get damn emotion.
"mom, i must to go... and ya i must finished my project.." kis her head and im walk ..but jojo just stand up bised his mom...i heard his mom said to him " hey, run..go go run boy!"


"Anna! anna!!!!!..." his scream loud, maybe until many ppl look me and him.. " anna wait! we need to talk! please anna! i beeging!!!"

im still walked faster but, he got me in the park opposite the hospital " what?!" i answer with challenging voice
"we need to talk."
"i dont have time for this shit."
"c'mon! i beeging.."

for 2 minutes his begging me.. and yahh im melt..

"ok, ok we talk this shit! what u wanna talk looser?"

"ok i know its my fault and wanaa be my wife" he show nice ring from cutie case and his know i love black case...but im shy show tears in front him.. im go awayy, im run until im fool in roadside..

his up me and i fit his chess with uncontroled power

"damn! damn! why im still love you! why??? whyy JONATHAAN!! whyy?? "

while i hit him, his stoped me with his big chess and HUGPT his hug me.. and hes cry..


"sorry for anythin.. i know its my fault.. im ur litle loosserr... i can prooveee anythin what u need ...really...

"whres the ring" he gave me..

i wear the ring on my sweet finger and hes cry and we cry togetha...

"i swear! i cant wait long long time i want to be ur wife.."..